I did it.

Today was my last day. I didn't get much work done, but they all understood. Weird feeling. with all my other jobs I was happy that it was over... but with this one... it was so nice and cozy. People were great and the work was interesting.

Yes and I remember that in the beginning it was killing me. I wasn't used to working anymore since I had been unemployed for more than 6 months. And back then I didn't know the people very wel yet.

And my biggest problem, as usual, that I didn't really tell them how much I appreciated them. When I like someone I make them uber great in my head and then I feel like I'm not worthy of them. Then I get all shy around them and just smile and blush. I'm an Idjit but we knew that already. So I left my email and phone number for a couple of the people I liked best. I doubt, though, that they'll ever contact me. That's the way it goes with collegues. :( I've had that before. But it also shouldn't be an obligation on their part. So I don't know. It's just that no matter how many super great friends we have I also kind of want friends of my own. People that only I know. Might sound weird. It's just really hard for me to make friends, since when I like someone and find them interesting and stuff I get all shy (as I said). So there goes that. And then maybe I do something stupid like scare them off coming out of no where and freaking them out. Great. Did I meantion that I was an Idjit???? I'm gonna go and feel stupid now... bye... :|