Dead

I've never been in this much pain ever in my life. It feels like I'm dying and nomatter what I do it doesn't get any better. People at work wanted to call an ambulance because I got paler and paler and I fell over but I just said I'd go home and it would be fine. I don't know why, but my whole body burns. It starts in my stomach and it spreads all through my body. Every movement I make hurts, and when I don't move it hurts as well. The fact that I cried all day and threw up all my food didn't help either. I drank a lot of water and someone got me soup so at least I kept that in. I'm so hungry it's not even funny, yet I'm so naucious that I'm afraid to eat. I will try to eat some pasta, I hope I'll keep it in. I tried to call Angel but she's really angry and wouldn't answer, so I couldn't tell her that I was sick. I've had some pretty hefty stomach aches before but this beats it all. I took some painkillers now and maybe trying to eat again and sleeping a bit will make it better. I don't know. I'm too weak to do anything else.

And the way I feel in my head gets worse every day as well. I'm like zomby. I don't feel much anymore, only sadness. I've been like this for a week now and it only gets worse. All I wanna do is sleep and go to work because there I'm at least useful. When I run around doing stuff I can forget all the shit in my head.

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