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2006-03-29
Julia is back!
Faithful readers will - just like our neighbors - have noticed Julia's car is parked in my street very often lately...
In the past few weeks Julia and I talked, emailed and MSNed a lot. We have often visited each other, we have had dinner together and we have gone out.
We have reached the conclusion we want to live together again! And we have taken action immediately. Julia is living with me again! We both have the feeling we can make it work again and we are willing to do our best to make it work!
I am so happy!
In the past few weeks Julia and I talked, emailed and MSNed a lot. We have often visited each other, we have had dinner together and we have gone out.
We have reached the conclusion we want to live together again! And we have taken action immediately. Julia is living with me again! We both have the feeling we can make it work again and we are willing to do our best to make it work!
I am so happy!
2006-03-28
Little Twingo
Suddenly it was here: The new Twingo!
As you can see it has its mother's looks. But what you don't see (until you do a test drive in it) is that it has its father's character. The 16-valve engine makes it a lot more powerful and fast than Kitty.
Unselfish as she is, Julia immediately suggested we could swap cars, so that I would drive this racing horse and she would drive Kitty, but that is out of the question of course: It was Her turn for a new car. I had my turn in November.
Of course we need to watch out we don't get into the wrong one by mistake!
As you can see it has its mother's looks. But what you don't see (until you do a test drive in it) is that it has its father's character. The 16-valve engine makes it a lot more powerful and fast than Kitty.
Unselfish as she is, Julia immediately suggested we could swap cars, so that I would drive this racing horse and she would drive Kitty, but that is out of the question of course: It was Her turn for a new car. I had my turn in November.
Of course we need to watch out we don't get into the wrong one by mistake!
2006-03-27
Look into my eyes
Yes it's true, Kitty is pregnant! We will get a little one! But three cars for two people is one too many. So one of them will have to go. And that will be this trustworthy, yellow Twingo who has served us so loyally all of these years. Yesterday was the last time they got the opportunity to look into each other's eyes.
2006-03-26
Thirty-fifth Column
Tonight my thirty-fifth column was broadcast in Gendertalk #553.
You can find the complete program in the Gendertalk archive.
Or you can find just my column at:
http://eveliensnel.com/audio/ENJOY01.mp3
A full transcript of the text is below:
Enjoy
I think it is high time to tell you something about the bright side of the story. I have told you so much about the difficulties and hardships of being transgender, but there is more to it than that. Transgender individuals all have to struggle in their lives to reach a state of balance between the way they feel about themselves and the way other people look at them. And they will enjoy this balance once they have reached it. Every day they will consciously enjoy something most people take for granted: The harmony between the way they feel and the way people see them.
On this journey to balance and harmony we learn an awful lot about the role of male and female people in our society. Living part of our lives as men and another part as women, we also get an opportunity to pick up skills that are traditionally only learned by one of the sexes like knitting or bricklaying. And we get to socialize in both 'men only' and 'women only' situations. We...
Well, as I list them, I see that none of these examples hold in all cases and none of them express exactly what I am trying to say. What I am trying to say is that all of us are beyond the binary view on the sexes that is common in our society. I think that is an advantage. It gives us an opportunity to look at the world from a different perspective. That makes it possible to see things other people don't see. It is not so strange that throughout history many cultures have thought transgender people had special abilities and wanted them to be priests or seeers.
And even if we don't do anything, our mere existence may help other people to see things in a different light. This week I got an email from a twenty year old girl who stumbled onto my website while she was looking for something else, got interested and read almost all of it. I am so glad this happened and I am also glad she told me about it. The reason she got so interested was that only a few days earlier she met a transsexual woman in the supermarket where she works. Unfortunately this woman didn't pass well enough to go unnoticed and that made some of her colleagues quite nervous, not knowing whether she should be addressed as "sir" or as "madam" and things like that.
So she found my website at the right moment, just at a time she was eager to learn something about this subject. Hopefully she will also point her colleagues to my site so that they can learn from it as well. My website is there to tell people that transgender people exist and to tell them what this is all about. I hope it can take away the fear some people feel when they meet transgenders because it is something they don't know anything about.
This email is but one example of the many positive experiences I have encountered since I have decided to stop trying to live as a man and to give room to my true feelings instead. I have stopped to see my gender dysphoria as a curse. Now that I have learned to live with it, it is becoming more and more clear to me that it can be a blessing. It can be a starting point to stop thinking in black and white and start to see many shades of gray, not to mention all the beautiful colors!
Transgender people from all countries, please come out of your closets if you can and start shedding your colorful light onto your environment. And enjoy!
You can find the complete program in the Gendertalk archive.
Or you can find just my column at:
http://eveliensnel.com/audio/ENJOY01.mp3
A full transcript of the text is below:
I think it is high time to tell you something about the bright side of the story. I have told you so much about the difficulties and hardships of being transgender, but there is more to it than that. Transgender individuals all have to struggle in their lives to reach a state of balance between the way they feel about themselves and the way other people look at them. And they will enjoy this balance once they have reached it. Every day they will consciously enjoy something most people take for granted: The harmony between the way they feel and the way people see them.
On this journey to balance and harmony we learn an awful lot about the role of male and female people in our society. Living part of our lives as men and another part as women, we also get an opportunity to pick up skills that are traditionally only learned by one of the sexes like knitting or bricklaying. And we get to socialize in both 'men only' and 'women only' situations. We...
Well, as I list them, I see that none of these examples hold in all cases and none of them express exactly what I am trying to say. What I am trying to say is that all of us are beyond the binary view on the sexes that is common in our society. I think that is an advantage. It gives us an opportunity to look at the world from a different perspective. That makes it possible to see things other people don't see. It is not so strange that throughout history many cultures have thought transgender people had special abilities and wanted them to be priests or seeers.
And even if we don't do anything, our mere existence may help other people to see things in a different light. This week I got an email from a twenty year old girl who stumbled onto my website while she was looking for something else, got interested and read almost all of it. I am so glad this happened and I am also glad she told me about it. The reason she got so interested was that only a few days earlier she met a transsexual woman in the supermarket where she works. Unfortunately this woman didn't pass well enough to go unnoticed and that made some of her colleagues quite nervous, not knowing whether she should be addressed as "sir" or as "madam" and things like that.
So she found my website at the right moment, just at a time she was eager to learn something about this subject. Hopefully she will also point her colleagues to my site so that they can learn from it as well. My website is there to tell people that transgender people exist and to tell them what this is all about. I hope it can take away the fear some people feel when they meet transgenders because it is something they don't know anything about.
This email is but one example of the many positive experiences I have encountered since I have decided to stop trying to live as a man and to give room to my true feelings instead. I have stopped to see my gender dysphoria as a curse. Now that I have learned to live with it, it is becoming more and more clear to me that it can be a blessing. It can be a starting point to stop thinking in black and white and start to see many shades of gray, not to mention all the beautiful colors!
Transgender people from all countries, please come out of your closets if you can and start shedding your colorful light onto your environment. And enjoy!
2006-03-25
The Smile Off your Face
Today theatre group "Ontroerend Goed" did the performance "The Smile Off your Face" in De Brakke Grond in Amsterdam. Julia and me here there...
Welcome to Ontroerend Goed's dark stage. The performance "The Smile off your Face" is a radically different approach to a theatre experience. You are blindfolded and cuffed in a wheel chair. This is not watching; it is an experience. There is no stage, no audience, no place in the spot lights where the actors do their thing. Can you feel the smile off your face? The Smile off Your Face is an individual performance. One spectator is allowed into the room every five minutes. Personal guides lead you along the track the each actor. The performance lasts for twenty five minutes for each guest.
I have had many exciting theatre experiences, e.g. "Baby Blue" and several other performances I haven't translated into English yet. But this was much more heavy! This performance was pure BDSM!
Handcuffed in your wheel chair you are rolled into the unknown... What can you expect? The only option is to submit yourself and trust the people who will give you a treat.
I don't want to give away too much about what happens in the room. There were sounds, smells, touches, conversations... In several ways the actors "pull your leg" (insiders call it "mind fucks"). You do get personal attention and you will be interacting with the actors.
Julia and I enjoyed it very much!
This performance will soon be in Malmö in Sweden...
"In The Smile off Your Face Ontroerend Goed ("touchingly good") honor their name: they roll you from loneliness to coziness and back. They invite you to delve into your own feelings of fear and lust, memories and desires. They guide you, caress you, even feed you. You are invited to resist or to refrain from resistance. Being open about yourself is best done when blindfolded." (Belgian newspaper De Morgen, December, 8th. 2004)
Group: Ontroerend Goed
Author: Aurèlie Lannoy
Directors: Sophie De Sommere, Joeri Smet
With: Noémi Schlosser, Elke Thijs, Roel Verhaver
Welcome to Ontroerend Goed's dark stage. The performance "The Smile off your Face" is a radically different approach to a theatre experience. You are blindfolded and cuffed in a wheel chair. This is not watching; it is an experience. There is no stage, no audience, no place in the spot lights where the actors do their thing. Can you feel the smile off your face? The Smile off Your Face is an individual performance. One spectator is allowed into the room every five minutes. Personal guides lead you along the track the each actor. The performance lasts for twenty five minutes for each guest.
I have had many exciting theatre experiences, e.g. "Baby Blue" and several other performances I haven't translated into English yet. But this was much more heavy! This performance was pure BDSM!
Handcuffed in your wheel chair you are rolled into the unknown... What can you expect? The only option is to submit yourself and trust the people who will give you a treat.
I don't want to give away too much about what happens in the room. There were sounds, smells, touches, conversations... In several ways the actors "pull your leg" (insiders call it "mind fucks"). You do get personal attention and you will be interacting with the actors.
Julia and I enjoyed it very much!
This performance will soon be in Malmö in Sweden...
"In The Smile off Your Face Ontroerend Goed ("touchingly good") honor their name: they roll you from loneliness to coziness and back. They invite you to delve into your own feelings of fear and lust, memories and desires. They guide you, caress you, even feed you. You are invited to resist or to refrain from resistance. Being open about yourself is best done when blindfolded." (Belgian newspaper De Morgen, December, 8th. 2004)
Group: Ontroerend Goed
Author: Aurèlie Lannoy
Directors: Sophie De Sommere, Joeri Smet
With: Noémi Schlosser, Elke Thijs, Roel Verhaver
2006-03-24
Kitty is sleeping around
Did I tell you my little Twingo has a name? She is called Kitty, after Michael Knight's car in de series "Knight Rider" (and after someone else, but I won't reveal that...)
But I don't know what she's been up to this night... This morning I found her cuddling with this yellow racing car in the parking lot. I have a hunch we will soon be greeting a new member of the family
But I don't know what she's been up to this night... This morning I found her cuddling with this yellow racing car in the parking lot. I have a hunch we will soon be greeting a new member of the family
2006-03-10
Goodbye to Pamela
Today was the last time I visited my speech therapist, Pamela. I have to admit I was touched by this farewell. We have worked closely together for a year and a half and we have reached some very good results.
I brought her a beautiful bouquet of flowers and we have consoled each other with the thought it might be very useful for me to start seeing a new speech therapist now. She may have another view on my case and help me to progress a little further in her own way.
I am not Pamela's only happy customer. This A2-sized picture has been made for her by Loes, one of her younger clients. It has been up on the wall in the waiting-room for weeks and I have been immodest enough to take a picture of it. I don't think Loes will be angry with me for this, it is likely this is the first time her works is published on the Internet...
Pamela thank you!
I brought her a beautiful bouquet of flowers and we have consoled each other with the thought it might be very useful for me to start seeing a new speech therapist now. She may have another view on my case and help me to progress a little further in her own way.
I am not Pamela's only happy customer. This A2-sized picture has been made for her by Loes, one of her younger clients. It has been up on the wall in the waiting-room for weeks and I have been immodest enough to take a picture of it. I don't think Loes will be angry with me for this, it is likely this is the first time her works is published on the Internet...Pamela thank you!
2006-03-06
Twelfth-Night
This was the first time I got to see a performance in the new 'small hall' in the Eindhoven City Theatre, together with Julia. We had visited this hall before in a guided tour when it was still being built, but now it is fully operational. Tonight De theatercompagnie played "Twelfth-Night" by William Shakespeare, directed by Theu Boermans.
I didn't have time for dinner. If I want to visit a theatre play, I have to go straight from work to the theatre. But one should be able to go out once in a while, right? So I took some extra sandwiches in my lunch bag and that was all I could do about it.
But I am not sorry I did this: We saw a beautiful performance.
Twelfth-Night starts with a shipwreck. The twins Viola and Sebastian survive the disaster but they loose sight of each other. They both think their sibling is dead. These teenagers, roughly separated from everything that used to be part of the world as they knew it, land in un unfamiliar country: Illyria.
Welcome to Illyria, a contemporary paradise, where the inhabitants live on their unfulfilled desires. This is where Olivia and Orsino rule, both are owners of very successful businesses and both are suffering from a heavy 'quarter life crisis'. Orsino, deadly in love with Olivia, endulges in love songs to give way to his feelings. But he isn't quite sure whether he is in love with Olivia, with her company or with love itself. Olivia doesn't know how to choose between her independence, submission to her feelings or a take-over of her company.
So for the time being she has decided to do nothing at all. She send out an announcement that she will be in mourning for her dead brother for the next seven years.
Viola is trying to find out who she really is. She decides to disguise as her twin brother Sebastian for safety and is hired by Orsino. When Orsino tells her about his unlucky love she falls in love with him. But Orsino sends the disguised Viola to Olivia time and time again as a 'postillion d'amour'. The result is a disaster. Olivia falls in love with this harmless but 'handsome young man'.
A woman in men's clothing provides Shakespeare with plenty of opportunity for mistaken identities and hilarious misunderstandings. This play is one of his masterpieces and in contrast with most of his plays it is a comedy.
Theu Boermans did a lot of re-writing to fit the play into modern times, but that didn't reduce the power of the original play by Shakespeare. And it may have been due to his directing or to the professionally of the actors or both, but we saw a lot of excellent acting.
I had worried a little about the part of "Top" ("Sir Toby Belch" in the original play): It was played by a famous Dutch talkshow host. I feared I would feel all evening as if I was watching one of his uninteresting TV-shows, but that wasn't the case at all: He was "Top" all over!
The scene on stage looked like a modern office: There were several cubicles, each separated from the rest with movable, Plexiglas walls. Most of the time it was used as an office indeed: Olivia's office on the left and Orsino's office on the right.
Olivia's dog was a lovely idea: A remote controlled Aibo...
Cast:
Viola: Carice van Houten
Sebastian: Tijn Docter
Orsino: Frank Lammers
Olivia: Saskia Temmink
Top ("Sir Toby Belch"): Paul de Leeuw
Bum ("Sir Andrew Aguecheek"): Mike Reus
Maria: Anneke Blok
Clown: Myranda Jongeling
Malvolio: Jappe Claes
Antonio: Abel Nienhuis
Captain: Matteo van der Grijn / Ferdi Stofmeel
Priest: Yora Rienstra
Guard: Matteo van der Grijn
Guard: Ferdi Stofmeel
Orsino's staff: Abel Nienhuis, Yora Rienstra, Ferdi Stofmeel
Olivia's staff: Margreet Boersbroek, Matteo van der Grijn, Jessica Zeylmaker
Musician: Rob van Zandvoort
I didn't have time for dinner. If I want to visit a theatre play, I have to go straight from work to the theatre. But one should be able to go out once in a while, right? So I took some extra sandwiches in my lunch bag and that was all I could do about it.
But I am not sorry I did this: We saw a beautiful performance.
Twelfth-Night starts with a shipwreck. The twins Viola and Sebastian survive the disaster but they loose sight of each other. They both think their sibling is dead. These teenagers, roughly separated from everything that used to be part of the world as they knew it, land in un unfamiliar country: Illyria.
Welcome to Illyria, a contemporary paradise, where the inhabitants live on their unfulfilled desires. This is where Olivia and Orsino rule, both are owners of very successful businesses and both are suffering from a heavy 'quarter life crisis'. Orsino, deadly in love with Olivia, endulges in love songs to give way to his feelings. But he isn't quite sure whether he is in love with Olivia, with her company or with love itself. Olivia doesn't know how to choose between her independence, submission to her feelings or a take-over of her company.
So for the time being she has decided to do nothing at all. She send out an announcement that she will be in mourning for her dead brother for the next seven years.
Viola is trying to find out who she really is. She decides to disguise as her twin brother Sebastian for safety and is hired by Orsino. When Orsino tells her about his unlucky love she falls in love with him. But Orsino sends the disguised Viola to Olivia time and time again as a 'postillion d'amour'. The result is a disaster. Olivia falls in love with this harmless but 'handsome young man'.
A woman in men's clothing provides Shakespeare with plenty of opportunity for mistaken identities and hilarious misunderstandings. This play is one of his masterpieces and in contrast with most of his plays it is a comedy.
Theu Boermans did a lot of re-writing to fit the play into modern times, but that didn't reduce the power of the original play by Shakespeare. And it may have been due to his directing or to the professionally of the actors or both, but we saw a lot of excellent acting.
I had worried a little about the part of "Top" ("Sir Toby Belch" in the original play): It was played by a famous Dutch talkshow host. I feared I would feel all evening as if I was watching one of his uninteresting TV-shows, but that wasn't the case at all: He was "Top" all over!
The scene on stage looked like a modern office: There were several cubicles, each separated from the rest with movable, Plexiglas walls. Most of the time it was used as an office indeed: Olivia's office on the left and Orsino's office on the right.
Olivia's dog was a lovely idea: A remote controlled Aibo...
Cast:
Viola: Carice van Houten
Sebastian: Tijn Docter
Orsino: Frank Lammers
Olivia: Saskia Temmink
Top ("Sir Toby Belch"): Paul de Leeuw
Bum ("Sir Andrew Aguecheek"): Mike Reus
Maria: Anneke Blok
Clown: Myranda Jongeling
Malvolio: Jappe Claes
Antonio: Abel Nienhuis
Captain: Matteo van der Grijn / Ferdi Stofmeel
Priest: Yora Rienstra
Guard: Matteo van der Grijn
Guard: Ferdi Stofmeel
Orsino's staff: Abel Nienhuis, Yora Rienstra, Ferdi Stofmeel
Olivia's staff: Margreet Boersbroek, Matteo van der Grijn, Jessica Zeylmaker
Musician: Rob van Zandvoort
2006-03-05
Thirty-fourth Column
Tonight my thirty-fourth column was broadcast in Gendertalk #550.
You can find the complete program in the Gendertalk archive.
Or you can find just my column at:
http://www.eveliensnel.com/audio/FANT01.mp3
A full transcript of the text is below:
Fantasy
This week I met someone in a chatroom who had "TV" behind the name.
I guess we all know what that means: If someone puts "TV" behind the name, it means "transvestite" or "crossdresser". It is someone who wants to make a clear statement that the female name and garments do not imply a female body.
People in the chatroom made a bit of fun about the "TV" postfix to her name, but not in a nasty way. This chatroom is part of a very tolerant community and all the regular visitors know about my situation as a transsexual. I don't yell that from the rooftops in all situations. I don't put "TS" behind my name. But it is not a "big" secret, it is just "my little secret". I kept a low profile for a few minutes until I was sure it would be a good idea to come out to this new member of the community about my own situation and then I told her about myself and I gave her some tips about interesting websites and meetings.
It didn't take very long before she requested me to have a private chat on separate channel and I agreed. I felt a girl to girl talk would do her a lot of good. And that turned out to be true. It turned out she was in a rather isolated situation and didn't have contacts with any other transgendered people. At her age of 34 there were really many similarities to my own situation eleven years ago. And I know a contact with a more experienced person would have been a great boon to me at the time.
One of the first things she asked me was about her fantasies about being a prostitute and about being raped. "Are those filthy thoughts? Do you think this isn't normal?" she asked me. Well, of course I could help her with that. First of all. "normal" people are the most boring people I know. And second, her fantasies are not that uncommon.
She proceeded to tell me she loved to go out in the evening in very sexy clothing, with the fantasy in her head she was now soliciting. Of course I had to warn her about this. Being out on the street in sexy clothing is the dark is risky business for any woman. There is always a risk of harassment. And for a crossdresser there is the additional risk that if someone wants to harass you and finds out you don't have a female body, he can get very angry and molest you. Personally I have been harassed on two occasions.
This was clearly new information for her. She had never thought about the risks involved, but she wasn't completely convinced yet. What about the times I was harassed, she asked me, wasn't that arousing? Not even a little bit? -- No it wasn't. In your fantasy everything happens the way you like it. In reality it is quite different.
The first time I was harassed is about three years ago now. I had decided to go out for dinner, dressed up as beautiful as I could. Two man and a woman were waving and hooting at me from a table further down the restaurant. I ignored them. But when I took a seat at the bar, these guys took a seat next to me, one on either side. They would do my operation themselves, they said threateningly and they started to pull on my skirt. I hit one of them in the face and stood up to pay my bill and leave the restaurant. Then they knocked me to the floor. Fortunately the woman who accompanied them called them back. So I had a narrow escape. My pantyhose was destroyed and my legs were scratched, but it could have been much worse!
This story was enough to convince her that there is nothing nice about being harassed. I hope to meet her In Real Life later this month. I would love to help someone to avoid at least some of the mistakes I made in my own life.
You can find the complete program in the Gendertalk archive.
Or you can find just my column at:
http://www.eveliensnel.com/audio/FANT01.mp3
A full transcript of the text is below:
This week I met someone in a chatroom who had "TV" behind the name.
I guess we all know what that means: If someone puts "TV" behind the name, it means "transvestite" or "crossdresser". It is someone who wants to make a clear statement that the female name and garments do not imply a female body.
People in the chatroom made a bit of fun about the "TV" postfix to her name, but not in a nasty way. This chatroom is part of a very tolerant community and all the regular visitors know about my situation as a transsexual. I don't yell that from the rooftops in all situations. I don't put "TS" behind my name. But it is not a "big" secret, it is just "my little secret". I kept a low profile for a few minutes until I was sure it would be a good idea to come out to this new member of the community about my own situation and then I told her about myself and I gave her some tips about interesting websites and meetings.
It didn't take very long before she requested me to have a private chat on separate channel and I agreed. I felt a girl to girl talk would do her a lot of good. And that turned out to be true. It turned out she was in a rather isolated situation and didn't have contacts with any other transgendered people. At her age of 34 there were really many similarities to my own situation eleven years ago. And I know a contact with a more experienced person would have been a great boon to me at the time.
One of the first things she asked me was about her fantasies about being a prostitute and about being raped. "Are those filthy thoughts? Do you think this isn't normal?" she asked me. Well, of course I could help her with that. First of all. "normal" people are the most boring people I know. And second, her fantasies are not that uncommon.
She proceeded to tell me she loved to go out in the evening in very sexy clothing, with the fantasy in her head she was now soliciting. Of course I had to warn her about this. Being out on the street in sexy clothing is the dark is risky business for any woman. There is always a risk of harassment. And for a crossdresser there is the additional risk that if someone wants to harass you and finds out you don't have a female body, he can get very angry and molest you. Personally I have been harassed on two occasions.
This was clearly new information for her. She had never thought about the risks involved, but she wasn't completely convinced yet. What about the times I was harassed, she asked me, wasn't that arousing? Not even a little bit? -- No it wasn't. In your fantasy everything happens the way you like it. In reality it is quite different.
The first time I was harassed is about three years ago now. I had decided to go out for dinner, dressed up as beautiful as I could. Two man and a woman were waving and hooting at me from a table further down the restaurant. I ignored them. But when I took a seat at the bar, these guys took a seat next to me, one on either side. They would do my operation themselves, they said threateningly and they started to pull on my skirt. I hit one of them in the face and stood up to pay my bill and leave the restaurant. Then they knocked me to the floor. Fortunately the woman who accompanied them called them back. So I had a narrow escape. My pantyhose was destroyed and my legs were scratched, but it could have been much worse!
This story was enough to convince her that there is nothing nice about being harassed. I hope to meet her In Real Life later this month. I would love to help someone to avoid at least some of the mistakes I made in my own life.
2006-03-04
Startling
Julia and me spent a lot of time together on this T&T-evening. We are getting along better and better these days. We are also planning on going out together again soon!
Lia's transformation was present tonight as well and we both found something we liked. Julia has bought a beautiful necklace with a hanger in the shape of a heart all covered with sparkling little stones. And I fell for a sexy bodysuit made of black lace with tiny little red roses embroidered onto it. Very exclusive!
I went to the bar to order a glass of red wine and believe it or not: There was one seat free. So I sat down for a while. "Hi Willeke, how are you doing now?" the person next to me asked. Although my name is not Willeke, I answered and pretty soon we were in an interesting conversation. It turned out, the lady next to me was a transsexual herself and she is at the exact same stage in the therapy as I am. Before I know it, I may be sharing a room with her in the hospital.
She had been to the VU very recently and brought some good news: Apparently the waiting list for an operation has shrunk to only five months...
Five months! That is not bad if you were expecting twelve months! But it is startling as well. It is just like when you have an appointment with your dentist in two weeks and he suddenly calls you to ask you to come by immediately instead of waiting for a fortnight.
Suddenly it gets very close.
But still five months is a long time to wait, but it would mean my operation can take place within this year! Seven months earlier than I was expecting. It sounds too good to be true. But it is an outrage that people are shifted around in such a way. You take the most important decision in your life and instead of knowing what you are up to, you get into a lottery. Just wait and see when it will be your lucky day...
Previous T&T-evenings: February, January, December, November, October, September, July, June, May, April, March, February 2005, January 2005, December 2004, November 2004, October 2004, September 2004, August 2004, July 2004, June 2004, May 2004 and April 2004.
Lia's transformation was present tonight as well and we both found something we liked. Julia has bought a beautiful necklace with a hanger in the shape of a heart all covered with sparkling little stones. And I fell for a sexy bodysuit made of black lace with tiny little red roses embroidered onto it. Very exclusive!
I went to the bar to order a glass of red wine and believe it or not: There was one seat free. So I sat down for a while. "Hi Willeke, how are you doing now?" the person next to me asked. Although my name is not Willeke, I answered and pretty soon we were in an interesting conversation. It turned out, the lady next to me was a transsexual herself and she is at the exact same stage in the therapy as I am. Before I know it, I may be sharing a room with her in the hospital
.She had been to the VU very recently and brought some good news: Apparently the waiting list for an operation has shrunk to only five months...
Five months! That is not bad if you were expecting twelve months! But it is startling as well. It is just like when you have an appointment with your dentist in two weeks and he suddenly calls you to ask you to come by immediately instead of waiting for a fortnight.
Suddenly it gets very close.But still five months is a long time to wait, but it would mean my operation can take place within this year! Seven months earlier than I was expecting. It sounds too good to be true. But it is an outrage that people are shifted around in such a way. You take the most important decision in your life and instead of knowing what you are up to, you get into a lottery. Just wait and see when it will be your lucky day...
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2006-03-02
Heating (5)
It is working again!
O, I so much love to sit in a hot bath!
I made up for the shortage in the past days and spent an hour and a half in the tub.
You don't realize what you've got, until it is gone.
I guess that goes for many things in life, really.
O, I so much love to sit in a hot bath!
I made up for the shortage in the past days and spent an hour and a half in the tub.
You don't realize what you've got, until it is gone.
I guess that goes for many things in life, really.
2006-03-01
Heating (4)
There was no call from the heating servicemen again, so I called them. "Yes, the heat exchange unit will be delivered tomorrow, so we can now make an appointment." Then why didn't they ring me? They don't do a thing unless you keep on pushing them!
They will be here tomorrow afternoon, so Julia will have to be here to take care of things again. And she was already in the house Tuesday afternoon and this morning she was here for the weekly cleaning. She does an awful lot of work for me!
They will be here tomorrow afternoon, so Julia will have to be here to take care of things again. And she was already in the house Tuesday afternoon and this morning she was here for the weekly cleaning. She does an awful lot of work for me!
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