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2004-03-31
Coming out
Today I went to a cremation. It was another important step in my coming out. My in-laws have come to know and accept Evelien already, but in my own family I am not that far yet. Not to mention the many relatives and friends of the deceased that showed up.
It was awfully crowded, I think there were more than 200 people. There weren't even enough seats available in the auditorium, so some people had to stand. In such a case I would choose a modest place at the back of the room mysellf, but my spouse is not as timid as I am, so we ended up all the way to the front of the hall, where we could see everything very well, not far from the coffin.
And that gave the audience plenty of time to admire us, of course. There was a very good speaker, who had a very interesting story on Corry's life, but I don't think there was anyone that didn't look in our direction more than once.
No, I don't really 'pass' yet...
But of course I was accepted, as is usually the case. And I got several positive reactions afterwards!
It was awfully crowded, I think there were more than 200 people. There weren't even enough seats available in the auditorium, so some people had to stand. In such a case I would choose a modest place at the back of the room mysellf, but my spouse is not as timid as I am, so we ended up all the way to the front of the hall, where we could see everything very well, not far from the coffin.
And that gave the audience plenty of time to admire us, of course. There was a very good speaker, who had a very interesting story on Corry's life, but I don't think there was anyone that didn't look in our direction more than once.
No, I don't really 'pass' yet...
But of course I was accepted, as is usually the case. And I got several positive reactions afterwards!
2004-03-30
Gee, cool!
Today I met a former colleague, I hadn't seen in four years. He didn't recognize me. I politely introduced myself as Evelien and said, that we had met before. When I mentioned my old name, he immediately remembered me. Of course I was curious how he would react to me, but I've always known him as an intelligent person and a good sport, so I figured he would take it lightly.
And I wasn't disappointed. "Gee, cool!" he said.
He told me that there used to be a lot of gossip around me at [our former employer's]. People just couldn't figure me out. They had the impression I was gay, but that couldn't be, because I was married to a woman.
Of course it is very well possible that someone is gay and married to a woman, but my case turned out to be a little more complicated...
And I wasn't disappointed. "Gee, cool!" he said.
He told me that there used to be a lot of gossip around me at [our former employer's]. People just couldn't figure me out. They had the impression I was gay, but that couldn't be, because I was married to a woman.
Of course it is very well possible that someone is gay and married to a woman, but my case turned out to be a little more complicated...
Underperforming
What a day!
Today I had the yearly talk with my boss about my performance.
And he's not very satisfied, I won't get a raise :-(
On the bright side: He doesn't seem to have any problem with my expression of my gender identity on the job. That subject wasn't even mentioned! My female appearance is now 'business as usual'.
His problem seems to be, that I take too much time for each thing I do. Hmm... Maybe I'm being too perfectionist. Or maybe I took on too much work, just to please him...
And now I discover that my favorite webcast, Gendertalk, will air one hour later today. Europe has switched daylight saving time and the USA hasn't done that yet.
It will start at 1:30 AM Dutch time today :-(
What a night!
Today I had the yearly talk with my boss about my performance.
And he's not very satisfied, I won't get a raise :-(
On the bright side: He doesn't seem to have any problem with my expression of my gender identity on the job. That subject wasn't even mentioned! My female appearance is now 'business as usual'.
His problem seems to be, that I take too much time for each thing I do. Hmm... Maybe I'm being too perfectionist. Or maybe I took on too much work, just to please him...
And now I discover that my favorite webcast, Gendertalk, will air one hour later today. Europe has switched daylight saving time and the USA hasn't done that yet.
It will start at 1:30 AM Dutch time today :-(
What a night!
2004-03-28
On line
It is time to publish!
I was only able to do some minor maintenance to the site. I should really update the contents in many places, but there is no time for that. It is a good thing that everything works now.
Now I can safely put the diary on-line.
I was only able to do some minor maintenance to the site. I should really update the contents in many places, but there is no time for that. It is a good thing that everything works now.
Now I can safely put the diary on-line.
2004-03-26
One link says it all
I intend to put an elaborate story about transsexuality on my site, but it will take a while before that is ready.
In the meantime, I would like to present a link to the story of a woman I admire very much: Lynn Conway.
In the meantime, I would like to present a link to the story of a woman I admire very much: Lynn Conway.
Technical details
It is driving me crazy!
To publish my site from a Unix system (and with a blog), I need to update each and every page I ever made. Boring!
I want to write a nice diary, with Real Life Test experiences, but all I do is edit pages I wrote years ago to conform to a new standard.
It won't be long before I put the blog online anyway, without updating the rest of the site!
To publish my site from a Unix system (and with a blog), I need to update each and every page I ever made. Boring!
I want to write a nice diary, with Real Life Test experiences, but all I do is edit pages I wrote years ago to conform to a new standard.
It won't be long before I put the blog online anyway, without updating the rest of the site!
2004-03-25
Sexual Reassignment Engineering
It is nice to have a blog, but before I can open it to the public, I need to do some mayor maintenance to the rest of my site. It must be a year ago I last did that.
At that time, I replaced (almost) every occurance of my male name 'Evert' with the androgynous word 'Eef'. In that way I changed my homepage from male to androgynous. But while I did that, I also had to translate the scripts I use for creating my pages from MS-DOS to Windows XP.
Now I want to change my pages from androgynous to female, by changing every occurrance of 'Eef' into 'Evelien'. But at the same time I want to translate the scripts from Windows XP to Unix.
I always think of a way to make things difficult for myself :-(
At that time, I replaced (almost) every occurance of my male name 'Evert' with the androgynous word 'Eef'. In that way I changed my homepage from male to androgynous. But while I did that, I also had to translate the scripts I use for creating my pages from MS-DOS to Windows XP.
Now I want to change my pages from androgynous to female, by changing every occurrance of 'Eef' into 'Evelien'. But at the same time I want to translate the scripts from Windows XP to Unix.
I always think of a way to make things difficult for myself :-(
2004-03-23
Can I post a link?
This is of course the moment to surf to Gendertalk and listen to their wonderful, weekly GLBT program! (In Holland it starts at 12:30 AM. That is 6:30 PM EST...)
And you don't even have to listen live; they also have an archive...
And you don't even have to listen live; they also have an archive...
2004-03-22
Blog?
Here we go!
My very own Weblog.
I wonder, why they call it a 'Blog'?
My very own Weblog.
I wonder, why they call it a 'Blog'?
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